fastlane

An8rwpoi. trexoun trexoun trexoun.
pernane san tis stagones tis vroxhs, den exei shmasia poios eisai, o ouranos fainetai kalytera apo to xwma.
Zeis mono mia fora, kai egw zw gia to shmera!
variemai na grafw se auto to pliktrologio, einai kourastiko, protimw to kinito mou. T_T

ti wraia ta megala urban akoustika. me ta 5m kalwdio pou den ksereis pou na to mazepseis sto metro kai ta afrata maksilarakia. shma katate8en enos dj kai tou filou mou tou Val.


to be continued. exw mhdenikh ebneush auth ti stigmi

Tell me why i don't like mondays

Mm......
Σκέφτομαι εδώ και μέρες τι να γράψω εδώ. Όλο λέω ότι θέλω να εκφραστώ και όλο το αφήνω. Γιατί; μήπως φοβάμαι τον εαυτό μου; τα ίδια τα πράγματα που εχω στο κεφάλι μου με τρομάζουν.
Ζω και αγαπώ τους φίλους μου αλλά δεν ξέρω αν αγαπώ εμένα.
Κάποιες φορές νομίζω ότι σαμποτάρω τον ίδιο μου τον εαυτό. Λες και κάνω πράγματα για να τα βρω μπροστά μου, να αγχωθώ και να τα παρατήσω. Και αυτό είναι πραγματικά δύσκολο. Εκεί που νόμιζα ότι όλα πήγαιναν καλά με σχολή κλπ παω και τα γαμαω όλα. Και πάλι απ'την αρχή. Και πάλι..
Πόση δύναμη θέλει για να ζήσεις; για να έχεις αυτα που θες και να είσαι ευτυχισμένος; για να είσαι καλά μέσα σου..
Γι'αυτό δεν μου αρέσουν οι δευτέρες. Μου θυμίζουν άλλη μια αποτυχημένη νέα αρχή.
Θέλω να ερωτευτώ όσο τίποτα άλλο. Να ζήσω πράγματα που μέχρι τώρα δεν εχω ζήσει. Να παω ένα μεγάλο ταξίδι. Και να μείνω εκεί. Γιατί δεν ξέρω αν υπάρχει κάτι που με κρατάει πλέον εδώ.

After a long day

I still feel like something's missing...

Molis gyrisa spiti k eimai ptwma..eixa to prwi sxolh, arghsa na ksypnhsw k etrexa sto dromo gia na prolavw -_-
Kati kalo: egina melos ths epitrophs diorganwshs ths 12hmerhs ekdromhs ths sxolhs m sto ekswteriko!(italia, elvetia, germania, arxes aprilh) cant wait!xD

H zwh einai toso paraksenh merikes fores..sta fernei etsi opws dn fantazosun oti 8a symvoun, k meneis na koitas m t stoma anoixto kapws etsi :-O
Antilamvanomai pws dn ftaiw gia oti symvainei gyrw m s'auto tn kosmo alla borw me ligh voh8eia na syneisferw sto na allaksun pagies katastaseis.. Oloi mas exume efodia, alloi perissotera k alloi ligotera. Arkei na ta vrume mesa mas kai na dulepsume m'auta. O an8rwpos dyskola allazei xarakthra alla eukola allazei syberifora kai optikh gwnia gia ta pragmata.
Kapu edw gyrnaw pisw sto oneiro mou...

Punk party,TV&self-esteem

it's punk, bitch!

yeh yeh, apopse 8a pame se ena punkomagazo, pou h filh mou Vicky exei na proteinei. Tsaba pota xD (B)!

Vrhka ena programmataki sto net pou sou epitrepei na deis tin webcam tou allou xwris autos na to kserei. An kai kata pasa pi8anothta to programmataki einai ios, h olh idea me evale se skepseis. Kata poso ,pleon, exoume proswpikh zwh? Mallon mhdaminh, afou eimaste oloi fakelwmenoi, proorismenoi na spatalhsoume th zwh mas vlepontas diafhmiseis kai agorazontas kai katanalwnontas.

H zwh den einai mikrh gia tetoies vlakeies? Gia ateleiwtes wres brosta apo tin TV? (krazw kati to opoio o idios merikes fores kanw). Alla, skefteite! posa diaforetika pragmata 8a borousame na kanoume ekeines tis ateleiwtes wres pou to kefali mas arxizei na ksexilizei apo prosfores, eukairies kai atokes doseis!
Erwtas, dhmiourgia, aktivismos, texnh. Yparxoun toses dhmiourgikesasxolies, pou 8a prepe na arxisoume na anarwtiomaste gia to kata poso h thleorash apotelei ontws to 8avma tou 21ou aiwna, opws 8eloun na tin apokaloun merikoi.

Allagh 8ematos.
Exw thn entypwsh oti h autopepoi8hsh mou exei piasei pato,lately.
Dn kserw ti 8a kanw....
Ti prepei na kanw........
Ti 8a nai kalo na kanw...

Eidwmen! ;)

new era

H zwh pernaei.......... tik tak tik tak tik tak. Lepto pros lepto, gemizw ebeiries, skepseis kai oramata, allazw idees, pagiwnw apopseis, peftw kai ksanashkwnomai. Zw to paixnidi ths idias mou ths zwhs, zhtaw tous kanones gia na ypakousw alla den yparxoun..den yparxei tipota pio pragmatiko apo tin petsa mou kai tin psyxh mou. Tipota pio alh8ino apo to synais8hma pou me kataklyzei otan vlepw ta agaphmena mou proswpa xaroumena.

Exw yparskei alazonas kai egwisths sto parel8on, pragmata ta opoia kapoia stigmh entopisa ston eauto mou kai ta sixa8hka. O egwkentrismos se kanei na xaneis pragmata..pi8anes filies, sxeseis, stigmes. Sto telos katalavaineis oti h ousia vrisketai stis sxeseis sou me tous allous kai oxi toso ston idio sou ton eauto. This is the price that you pay, for being smart in a stupid way. (Ashlee Simpson, 'Undiscovered' movie)



Merikes fores skeftomai............
Giati ta oneira mou na einai toso rhxa?

Den fantasiwnomai koinwnikh isothta, anypakoh kai politikes metarry8miseis, opws para polloi synomhlikoi mou.

Den exw to orama tis oikogeneias sto myalo mou. Dhlwnw kata tou gamou kai tis desmeushs alla kata va8os fovamai na meinw monos. -_-

Den exw megalh idea gia ton eauto mou. Den me endiaferei na apokthsw lefta oute na exw dynamh. I just wanna be myself, kai auto kapoies fores ypotimatai.


aanyways.^^

Avrio

Avrio arxizei praktika h ekstastikh mou. To pio vareto pragma ston kosmo, an laveis yp'opsin oti h sxolh mou den me ksetrellainei.pff.
Dyo ma8hmata gia prwth mera den einai apla vanauso? eh?
Eutuxws..thn pempth exw kanonisei gia tin ek8esh graffiti sto kentro kai I CANT WAIT XD
Elpizw na vgalw kapoies kales pics wste na postarw edw kai na tis 8aumasoume oloi mazi ^^

Shmera to prwi eixa ena dema apo ton taxydromo. O Telly mou esteile dwro gene8liwn mia tabakiera kai exw hdh stripsei 10 tsigara ;D thanx thanx

Apo x8es exw allaksei 3,543,556 fores ta kadra ston toixo mou. Exw ftasei se ena shmeio pou ta exw kremasei ola kai ais8anomai san na eimai sta applebee's <_< nomizw oti 8a ta ksekremasw ola kai 8a afhsw to kommeno skateboard lol.

To savvato pou mas perase katevhka psyrrh me enan filo mou. Giname ligo goal, xD alla eixe gelio. Eixa na me8ysw para poly kairo. Kai, synama, eida kai gnwrisa apo konta to miso myspace. Good times.

Loipon!

Greeklish will do. Yeh yeh,
giati vare8hka to allo blog kai auto edw ta spaei arketa, opote den allazw. <_<

Variemai na koimi8w (giati arage?) kai borw me sigouria na pw oti eimai idrwmenos.

Telika oi "the Used" einai poly gamato sygkrothma xD. Katevasa tin diskografia tous, kai apo ta liga pou exw akousei, exw parei mia prwth apopsh ..

Avrio exei semfe to programma, 8a vrexei kiolas, ola ta $$.. To diavasma stin vivlio8hkh einai TOSO vareto. Oloi einai agalmata kai fovamai pws an tous akoubisw 8a spasoun. Parallhla, anarwtiemai, PWS ginetai ka8e fora na akougomai mono egw otan gyrizw me apa8eia tis selides tou tetradiou kai otan skizw ta fylla? Pwleitai kapou sigastiras? ;p

To soufle pou mageirepsa gia to trapezi to apogevma, eixe megalh epityxia! yay.
Vevaia, eixe kotopoulo, diladi gamisa tis vegetarian arxes mou, alla as elpisoume oti itan apla mia mikrh paren8esh^^

To savvato, pigame sto Play, kai nai, itan poly poly wraia. Genika den ais8anomai kai poly aneta na vgainw alla to palevw. I guess it will feel better, otan 8a exw xasei kapoia kila.^^

Anyway, ta matia mou tsouzoun kai oi fakoi mou 8olwsan pou shmainei, time to go to bed!

loved my first greeklish post xD

yourself.

I'm about to go to bed. I had another boring day. I slept all day, I went out for a coffee, and I ended up here.
I'm always talking about how much I want to get back to where I used to be; now that thought seems so far away. 3 years after my rise, 3 years after my sweet sixteen. I wish things would last forever; but alongside time comes knowledge. Better knowledge of my very own self, my thoughts and my nightmares. It's weird, how much there actually IS in us, and we can't even see or just ignore it.
I see people around me that are refusing to deal with the past or with their truth, by turning one big lie into their reality; and it's at that point that I say "Welcome to my truth". That's me, hate me or love me. If you're willing to become my friend, then you'll get both my good and my bad. It's so much better when you're being honest, when you are being yourself, when you act spontaneously. Some consider it the key to happiness. I'd just say it is what one should live for.

Opportunities

Where do they come from? Who gives them to us? Who takes them away? Is it just luck, preciously renamed into god? Coincidence? or just the results of hard work?

I believe, that opportunities is what we fight for; an opportunity for a better education, a chance for a higher-paid job, a great love.. Things come and go; we may have to prepare things before we're given an opportunity.

Hard work. Is that it?

And how do we get to achieve that amount of work?
I think it takes enough concentration on your target. You have to have set a target actually. It's the only way.

So..what's my target?

lately...

I've been having the feeling that things that used to be the same for years will not be anymore. Love, sounds, smells, my parents, my lovely dog, feelings, opportunities.. You think it's gonna last forever, but in the end, nothing does. And when it's all left and gone, you're left with a memory; an ocean of memories, being there, in their very special place in your heart, where you keep them safe, until you become someone else's memory yourself. Circle of life. I just wish I could keep some things alive forever; the people I love and my dog. They are safe in my heart, and my heart will go on and on...

French Fried

Tomorrow is my final oral french examination. In simpler words, I have to wake up at 8a.m., go to the examination center and talk to a french lady for half an hour about violence, or pollution, or whatever they think it's hard enough to even think of it(imagine talking about it).
Aanyway, I hope this goes well.. My school is fucked up. I don't pay any attention to it, and I'm probably going to fail. lol.
I tried baking some muffins earlier today but I used aspartame instead of sugar. Don't EVER try this. lol. Not only they ended up square (wtf), they also tasted like bread. Eventually, aspartame loses it's ability to sweeten when baked or heaten. I think I'm just gonna throw them away.
I also went to the supermarket today; bougt some of this extra light mayo (how about an extra extra light?) that tasted worse than rotten marshmallows.
Wish me luck for tomorrow <3

edge of nineteen.

im on my edge. im about to turn 20 (in some months)
it feels so weird. it feels so unsafe. it feels so not me.
im not any typical teenager. it's not that i have been living as an immature kid rolling around and being free. it's not that i have been being a true 18yo having fun and living my life. It's that I've been dreaming of a life so different;so pure. And I didnt accomplish a thing..or maybe that's all in my head.

What makes us full? Fullfilling a role? a standard? a stereotype? I don't want that, even though it feels so damn safe. It wouldnt be true;it wouldnt be me. My personality is there..and it can shine on it's own.

"maybe one day..

i'll wish of you and me. together. all i can think of this you and me doing the things i wanna do. all i imagine is heaven on earth, i know it's you. anyone who ever kissed in the rain knows the whole meaning."
Roxette

Chinese;IKEA & a bit of spice

My specialty. Chinese chicken with vegetables and sweet&sour sauce. <3 Even though I'm a vegetarian, I rarely make an exception and taste this great meal. Most of my friends love it too. By the way, I really love to cook; it's a great way to flea from every-day problems while staying creative. Cooking is all about imagination. You mix this and that, add a few herbs and let spices and tastes melt and merge. Lovely!

Hmm..I want to save money so when I move out [hopefully soon] I will be able to buy new furniture from IKEA; I love this place! Especially the couch-beds and the kitchen tables,hehe^^ I'd love to live in a small, urbanish appartment downtown. I prefer it to the mountainy suburbs where I live right now. I'm more of a city boy.

I've realised that Ashlee Simpson is probably totally talentless. =O I have to admit that I love "Autobiography",the album, but when it comes to music talent and performance, she always seems to screw things up. Plus, she had this terrible nose job that made her look like your average hollywood starlet.

I've been reading a book these days, "The boy in the striped pyjamas". It's really good, and kinda touching. It describes a part of the World War 2 through the eyes of a child; a 9 year old boy, named Bruno. For more info tap here

I'm about to go to starbucks for a coffee. Been kind of tired these days, due to excessive staying up and a total lack of sleep and schedule. We have student strikes, so we haven't had classes since november. It's horrible. I need to get back in schedule and feel how it is to LIVE again, lol. But, on the other hand, I guess strikes are being done for a reason..

I'm off, either to bed or to starbucks. I will post again soon <3
Rusty.

view from my room

change your mind;

not always easy; changing your mind, your whole perception of things, the way you react under different circumstances. You seek love; you get love; you get sick of love and you finally realise that many people will love you but really few will make you part of their soul. That's what I've been looking for years; everywhere. And when I found something, someone that reached the top of my heart, I fell down on my knees when I realised that distance is something you simply can't ignore in this world of ours. I can surely say that I prefer geographical distance to emotional distance. There have been many times that I've felt completely alone while being among friends; that's why I've realised that mental contact is so much harder to achieve than physical contact.

Changing subject..I can't explain why I'm so attracted by urban landscapes and the urban environment in general. I can stand there, staring at highway roads, buildings, bus stops, graffiti artworks, baggy pants and buses. Urban art though is what I'm mostly fascinated by. I can spend hours searching for artworks in Deviantart [www.deviantart.com]. I love this site. <3

Today, we are supposed to celebrate. It's a greek custom. Oh, all I can say is that I'm disgusted by social stupidities. When's something's rotten, you can't make it shine.
I'm gonna finish this with one of my favourite lyrics:
"Tell me why are we so blind to see that the ones we hurt are you and me."

Peace