ponos & vixas

se eixa mathei mono egw na agapw.

kai telika?

nai.

ginomai ena me sena

ginomai isws xeiroteros

alla toulaxiston to apolamvanw.

oso paei, oso proxwrisei.

perimena na mou fer8eis diaforetika

alla mallon isoun san olous tous allous

isws xeiroteros.

thanks for the lesson.

eisai enas an8rwpos misos.

gia na doume pws vgainei i ekdosi sou

se full version.

^^

makia glyke m

you're nothing but a...

rustyrizer ^^

kai apopse ta kateferes

mikro glyko agori

ta kataferes!

Ever searching for the one.

Simera eklapsa..
fovamai ton eauto mou. na proxwrisw. na se afisw pisw. exw megalwsei me tous fovous mou, einai mesa mou o,ti kai an kanw.
H anyparksia, h axristia einai pepoithiseis pou exoun rizwsei kai einai ena me ton Vasili.

Kserw pws kapoia mera, pou den tha argisei, tha eimai eutuxismenos. Tha koitaw pisw stis dyskoles meres kai tha xamogelaw. Tha eimai stin aggalia sou kai tha skeftomai poso vareti mou fainotan i monaksia. Poso anousia, mounti kai axrwmi, xwris zwi, xwris noima.. Ton teleutaio xrono exw kanei prospatheies na pesw apo to 'roz synnefaki' sto opoio vriskomai. Katalavainw pleon oti oi prospatheies itan xwris apotelesma. Den borw kai den thelw na to dw alliws. Den borw kai den dynamai na to dw diaforetika. Akoma kai an eimai 100 xronwn, tha zisw auto pou thelw, opws to thelw. Tha xei aksia kai tha simainei..isws ta panta. Alla akoma kai an den simainei tipota, tha kserw pws i kardia mou, i psyxi kai i zwi mou itan ekei, estw kai gia ena deuterolepto. O xoros einai gia dyo. Apla den exei paiksei akoma to tragoudi mou..


Viva forever, I'll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live forever,
For the moment
Ever searching for the one.


Prin apo 6 mines...ena vrady pou perpatousa, akouga auto to tragoudi, kai eida ston ourano ena asteri, pio megalo kai pio fwteino apo ola ta alla. Skeftika oti auto to asteri eisai esy. Se oneireutika. Me ekanes eutuxismeno, estw kai gia mia stigmi. Gemises ti psyxi mou, roz petaloudes.

Epeita, vgika eksw.. se epsaksa. Vrika an8rwpous me maskes san ti diki sou. Tous plisiasa. Tous erwteutika. Evgala tis maskes kai meta apo ligo katalava oti kaneis apo autous den eisai esy. Katalava oti kaneis pote den tha einai toso kalos oso esy. Katalava oti isws den yparxeis.. kai den tha yparkseis pote. Auto me ekane na dakrysw.

O kathe an8rwpos psaxnei to asteri tou. Symvivazomaste. Zoume stigmes.
Thelw na zisw anousies, symvivasmenes stigmes. Varethika na se psaxnw, asteri. Eisai apla sto myalo mou. Kai se auto to tragoudi. Lypamai, alla dn yparxeis.

christmas decorations & after-party depression

Auti einai i katara twn giortwn..

Eite tha eisai mesa stin kali xara, pnigmenos se filous kai stolidia kai tha akous ta kseskonismena tragoudia tis Mariah Carey anoigontas ta typika xristougenniatika dwra,

Eite tha eisai mesa sto spiti, tyligmenos me tin kouverta sou kai ena potiri krasi kai tha akous kai pali ta kseskonismena tragoudia tis Mariah Carey..

Tin Mariah den ti glitwneis !

Giati eimai ypoxrewmenos na eimai xaroumenos, mono kai mono epeidi einai giortes? de goustarw!
eimai synaxwmenos kai arketa apogoitevmenos. Xreiazomai pragmatika ti douleia sta Evergreen. Einai auto pou tha xrimatodotisei tis spoudes mou stin Agglia. Xreiazomai mia allagi, kai kati pou tha me kanei na ksexastw, na proxwrisw, na katharisw to myalo mou (to opoio exw talaipwrisei arketa, lately).

FEVGW.
Opws exw pei, tipota den me krataei pia edw. Oute ta xristougenniatika labionia, oute to kammeno dentro sto syntagma, oute ta ili8ia dwra pou pira kai pali, oi kartes me tis typou-afierweseis (se fash, mana, ela na mou ta peis brosta mou, vare8ika na ta diavazw se kartes kathe xrono), oute i anamnisi sou. Kai nai, gia kapoious eimai ypervolikos, alla gia mena eimai apla o eautos mou. Kourastika & varethika.. den perimena oti tha einai toso dyskolo na vreis douleia. Ti skata kanw lathos?

Den ginetai na kanw lathi pantou. Kai sti douleia, kai stin proswpiki mou zwi, kai pantou.. elpizw, elpizw...
ta epomena xristougenna tha eimai diplos
kai stin Agglia.
telos

and it will pretty sure feel like christmas.

this is the end

poia einai i aparxi tis agapis?
pou vasizomaste otan leme oti 'agapame' kapoion?
einai to syblirwmatiko? to diaforetiko? oi anamniseis? ta oneira kai oi fantasiwseis?
i mipws tipota apo ola auta?

koitas ton allo sta matia kai auto se gemizei.. kai auto einai agapi
noiazesai
anapneeis
yparxeis
gia ton allo

kai telika pefteis se mia terastia trypa
kai euxesai na allazes ti 'skinothesia'
alla o ithopoios tis zwis sou eisai esy
kai egw

The End